First day

My emotions about starting school went from wanting it to start yesterday and to get in and get my hands dirty, to utter dread. I was so nervous and just lost all interest in it all together. 

My first official day at the school was on Wednesday (23rd January). I met all of the staff and they were just lovely. I felt a little caught in the middle though. I was in a room full of lovely people, who are so kind, but they did not know me at all. They were all so excited to see each other and I was caught in between conversations they had with each other, that I knew nothing about. So many people came up to me and introduced myself which I was so grateful for, however, I cannot remember the last time I was in a room, being the only new person. That’s who I am, the new girl. Being quite young (in comparison to the people in the room), I also felt like I had to prove myself a little, as I just felt so out of place. 

Recently, I found the TED app for my iPad. I am HOOKED on watching the speakers, I really am. This video, 

Amy Cuddy: Your body language shapes who you are 

is what significantly changed that mindset. Watch it, it will get you thinking, and you’ll understand this next part. 

Before I went to school on Friday, I stood in the mirror and acted out the ‘power’ poses. I stood with my arms in the air, as I ate my breakfast, I sat relaxed and opened, not hunched over the table, scooping up my muesli and drinking my coffee. 

Wow. I joined in on conversations. I asked more questions. I approached new people and said, ‘Everyone seems to know my name but I haven’t met you properly yet, what grade do you teach?’ I got a little angry with myself as I worked in retail for years and had to walk up to strangers on a daily basis and find out all sorts of things about them. In that environment, though, I ‘owned’ the space, it was ‘mine’ and they were ‘guests’. In this environment, while I am not a ‘guest’ and I work there just as much as my colleagues, I’m not familiar and they have a very tight-knit community.

Either way, that video made me think about how I was presenting myself. As Amy Cuddy says, you don’t need to have the same body language all the time, it’s more about having the body language for a short while to trick your brain a little. 

I am proud to say that Amy was right. “Our bodies change our minds, and our minds can change our behavior, and our behavior can change our outcomes.”

I think for a little while longer I will need to keep up these ‘power poses’. 

Stay tuned for photos of my classroom!

Jemma